Survived the holidays....

Barely....

The holidays included the following high points: one father/daughter disagreement while sorting through 14 bags of garbage looking for a lost $150 mall gift card (we didn't find the gift card, but we found Son Two's beloved Woobie at the bottom of one of the bags, so it wasn't all in vain...);

Son One's birthday celebration was marred by a change in plans...we were planning to go to Winterfest at Kings Island, but instead ended up going to see Narnia which freaked him out to the tune of shaking and sweating and sobbing, oh my.....

I'm home now...thank god. The boys went with their dad for a couple of days and I slept three hours yesterday afternoon. I was so worn out....I'd love to spend another day today in my jammies, but I'm supposed to go to a friend's house for lunch at 12:30. I do not feel social today. This is going to require a real attitude adjustment.

So thoughts now shift to the approaching New Year and how I can try to be a better mom, better worker, in better shape, and manage the family resources (time, money, space) better. I do this every year, and I can honestly say that I often succeed in improving in small ways. But this year, there's some biggies that need tackled, and I feel overwhelmed by my inadequacies already. I have confronted the big enemy in the dissatisfaction in my life...and it is me. Not what I wanted to discover, and definitely not going to be easy to sort through, but necessary.